Social media vs. Reality

Begin rant..... Social media has takin people's lives by storm over the decade or so and People pay more attention to Facebook, Twitter, fubar and all the other one's out there then they do there families. Im not innocent on that in anyway shape or form. Recently I realized how much time I spend on the internet checking Facebook postings or tweets on Twitter and I thought to myself "wtf am I doing?" ive been on FB for a very long 8 years. I was actually on it before people really started discovering it. We have computers in the palm of our hands (smart phones. Ipads and tablets) that causes people to ignore those around them.  Before FB I was constantly on Myspace so give or take the past 9 years have slipped past me at lighting speed. Even before that I was constantly playing poker on fulltilt poker. My son was a young 10 (almost 11) year old when I started playing poker online. Now in just a few short weeks he will be 21 and im scratching  my head trying to figure out when my son grew up and realized that I don't know my child. Why? Because like many others I was sucked into everything the Internet has to offer. Kids are messed up in the head now a days cause they haven't been raised the way we were.....  Parents outright ignore there kids cause there to busy with the noses being buried in there cells phones and or there tablets. It breaks my heart to see how messed up they are...... Life in general is so different than it was when I was growing up or pre-social media and it quickly took over my life!!
So now im forcing myself to  stay off of fb and other social media sites. What happened to the days when people hung out or spent time with there families??? Why don't people take there families out to do stuff? What happened to kids playing outside from sun up to sun down? The internet happened and its sad! Kids would rather be playing on there Xbox then be outside. Kids are getting into trouble left and right! Two different things that I have recently witnessed while doing laundry at the laundrymat....... One woman was at the laundrymat with her very young child..... This young child was trying to get her mothers attention, and the mother had her nose shoved in her cell phone and she actually screamed at her very young child for interrupting her...... Seriously? Nothing on the Internet is more important then that adorable child. I saw the look on that babies face when said mother screamed at her when all the child wanted was her mothers attention. It took everything to keep me from walking up to that woman and getting into her face and yelling at her. I sat there and bit my tongue for a hour to keep me from saying something..... Then a week ago at the laundrymat there was another young mother with 2 young children and she was outright ignoring her kids. The little girl tried getting her attention as she sat there on her cell phone and the mother wouldn't even acknowledge her, meanwhile the son was throwing a very small ball all over the place including at people and getting into stuff and yet the mother was ignoring what he was doing all because the Internet was more important? Seriously people really need to take a step back and see how this is going to affect there kids in the long run.....really sad! That's all I have to say about it!!! A lot of stuff about social media has really been irritating me that past few months...... Yea it's nice to be connected to family/relatives on there and cool to be able to reconnect with childhood friends or even long lost coworkers but people need to get a grip and remember the reality of life. Get off of the computers, cells and tablets and go spend time with your kids, spouses, family or friends ......Take a breather and enjoy life the way it was meant to be..... Looking at screens 24/7 is not the way life was meant to be!!!! End rant!!

Caffeine and Insomnia

Oh how I hate you caffeinated pop! You play with my insomnia all the time and it's wearing me thin. If I drink to much of you I'm 100% wired to the point there's no return, and sleep...... Well that I can forget about! Pop alone affects me the most in a way that it won't let me sleep at all. Yesterday I only had 1 can of Pepsi and 2 bottles of Mt. Dew over a 15 hour period but it did its damage. Up until 4 am then back up at 7am still wired. So for that I am parting ways with you pop and switching to tea in the mornings for my energy boosts and water with fruit in it. I want normal sleep back and I will take it back!! Goodbye pop! Go mess with someone else's sleep cause I'm done with you!!

Baby oh baby

So my cousins oldest child is due with her third child here soon and I've been wracking my head on what to get her for a baby gift. And my mind was only drawing 100% complete blanks. When she was pregnant with both of her daughters I couldn't afford to buy baby gifts for both the girls but have been making up for that at CHRISTmas time the past few CHRISTmas's. After I finished the quilt I made for my friends baby it suddenly dawned on me...... That I have over 3 weeks to make another baby quilt. I will be traveling to spend time with them for CHRISTmas so I dragged my son with me to Hobby Lobby in search of the perfect fabric to make a baby quilt for a baby boy and I think I hit the jack pot not only cause of the fabric I found but cause Hobby Lobby was having a awesome sale. Got not only the fabric at 30% off but got the batting at 30% off also.....  I walked out of there a happy camper. Will be cutting the fabric up tonight and tomorrow then will get my creativity on. The baby quilt I made for my friends little one I had done in large blocks. The one I'm making for my soon to arrive baby cousin I'm going to be brave and make it in small blocks. Hopefully this one turns out just as awesome!! Here's a picture of the fabric that I'm working with.......

Enjoy the crisp cold day everyone! At only 28 degrees I'm already for summer to return.......

Dreams

Ever since I was in high school my true dream has always been to own my own business. I started going to college not once but 3 times and stupidity quit all 3 times. For almost 18 years I have been stuck working in auto factories. And it's taking a toll on my body! For the past 3-4 years I have been racking my brain trying to figure out what sort of business I want to start and that it has to be something that I will love and enjoy doing and how will I get it started.......

Both of my great grandma's was quilters. One was very talented at it. A couple of years ago I finally decided that I wanted to learn to quilt and sell what I make, but I had one problem....... I couldn't afford to buy a sewing machine. My dad gave me one a year and a half ago and I just made my first baby quilt. It's a gift for a friend whom had her first baby. I didn't use any pattern I made it by what I visioned in my head and it turned out so beautiful!! 

My dad told me over the weekend that both of my great grandma's sold quilts and other crafts that they would make. 

And I never knew that. So I guess I'm continuing there legacy of quilting and selling. Now I wonder if they had whispered in my ear and told me that this is what I should do and guided me while I made my very first quilt.

My plan is to specialize in baby quilts and his and her Camo quilts and also his and her John Deere quilts. I live in a county where life revolves around hunting, fishing, and farming along with anything and everything having to do with outdoors. People in this county love everything Camo, mossy oak and realtree so I know the quilts will sell easily! I plan on starting this journey after the new year when peoples wallets have settled down and recovered from the Christmas season. I just need to settle on a name for my business then I will be up and at em' sewing like a mad woman!

Hopefully this journey goes the way I want it to so that I can get out of the factory life. Wish me luck!

Crossroads and Paths

As adults there is so many paths and crossroads that we can take in our life journey. Sometimes we turn in the wrong direction or we hit dead ends. I've hit many dead ends in my adult life and it makes it really hard to put a smile on my face and be happy.  I'm unhappy with the type of work I've been doing for almost 18 years. I've had hardships that seems like I've had way more then my fair share, but then I think about all the people living in poverty and all the homeless people in our country and it reminds me that I need to be grateful that I have a job and a house. 

In high school my goal was to own my own business. But 20+ years later that dream has not yet become a reality. For the past 10 months I have been in the process of planning and getting organized to make that dream a reality! It's coming along slower then I would like but I don't want to rush into it full speed ahead and cause it to fail.

I need to finish college and get my business degree that I started and didn't finish......

My employer will pay for my college courses and upon getting my degree I will be contracted to continue working for them for so many years. So I'm forcing myself to take a deep breath and do what I need to do to finish that degree. Work will remain where I'm at but I can still slowly start my business and just do it as a side job from home until I can make it a full time job in the future. 

I keep telling myself to be patient and let everything fall into place when it's meant to fall into place but I'm not much of a patient person. I'm so ready to turn down the correct path at that crossroad that's meant for me but I know I've got learn to be patient to make it happen at the correct time. Hopefully that correct path will surface soon.......  Ok I'm done rambling have a good day and until next time.......

Autumn...... Season's change

Seasons is a time of change. I love summer, the heat, the hotter the better. But, I also love fall.....

Fall is a time of crisp fresh air, hoodies, chilly night's, bon fires, football, apple cider, colorful leaves, flying leaves, bare tree's, cider mill's, fall festivals, the start of hunting season, harvesting and so much more.

Michigander's go into fall full force and they own it, live it and love it. I live in the country and I happen to love everything country. I live in a county that doesn't have any freeways that run through it and believe it or not there are no cities in it. There are towns, townships and villages. And farm after farm after farm. Harvest time now has the concubines and other farm equipment out on the roads going from point a to point b..... It can be annoying when your in a hurry but then I remember they grow what we put in our stomachs so I slow down and enjoy the scenery while driving until they turn onto a country road.

The village that I live in has the county's best fall festival that people travel from all over to attend. Last year was the 1st time that I checked it out. This year i ended up volunteering to work with my neighbor on trash removal

for part of the weekend so it was interesting getting to see what workers do behind the scenes and what they deal with behind the scenes of the festival.......

I did manage to go shop at all the little vendor booths Sunday morning before it started getting busy. Got some good stuff and enjoyed just walking slowly from booth to booth. But then it started getting packed so just as slowly I walked home and enjoyed what appears to have been our last warm day.

As we move into fall, slow down and enjoy the beauty of it all. It's such a beautiful season, with the tree's in full color...... Enjoy it, live it and love it! Happy fall to all :)

Crafts and Recipe's

Once upon A time when I was A teenager my grandmother started teaching me different craft's that you don't learn in school, and that I really enjoyed doing. Fast forward 28 year's I get just as bored as I did as a teenager so I am going to pick back up on those craft's that i can turn around and sell. I used to love "playing" with yarn with my grandma making this project and that project. So to pass the time esp during the cold winter months I will be keeping myself busy with yarn and also with fabric. I am self teaching myself to quilt. But it's not just quilts that i will be quilting but also anything that's quiltable. I will be quilting anything from quilted bags, table runners, placemats to patch quilt stuffed animals. Anything to keep myself busy!

I have been OBSESSED with recipe's since i was in my early 20's. I love making new stuff and in this day and age of technology I am always coming across recipe's on facebook that I absolutely want to make. But I am a penny pinching person when it come's to alot of stuff to save money. And my printer is one of those. I only print stuff from it when I absolutely have to! Why might you ask? Because I don't want to spend money on ink and paper just to constantly print this or that. So from now on I will be posting recipes on here that I want in a spot that i won't lose it. And will also Put my own personal recipe's on here with how to's and pictures.  

So now that i've passed some time with this post I must now go figure out what to make for dinner.....

Summer season

I live in a four season state and I always anticipate the arrival of Summer. The season of flip flops, shorts, tank tops, swimming, fishing, bbq's, Bon fires and camping.  The smell of fresh cut grass and a good rain fall! I always look forward to all of that.

I used to live in Southern California for a good part of my life, but the fast city life just didn't seem to be for me! I love everything country and enjoy the peacefulness of the country life and small towns. Heck, the county I live in doesn't even have a freeway that goes through it!! I think I was meant to live in the country. It's in my blood! My ex whom grew up on a farm in the country thinks I'm nothing but a city girl but what he doesn't realize is that in reality I grew up in the country but because I lived in the city for 11 years that I don't know anything but city life. But whatever I'm all country at heart and always have been! The city isn't for me at all. So he can think what he wants to think cause quite frankly I don't give a rats ass what he thinks! I do miss the convenience of living close to the ocean and the salty smell of it. But I also love lakes which doesn't have sharks in it😉lol.

Summer for me also now means 3+ miles of walking everyday. Which I'm starting at slowly but is going to become a yearly ritual for spring, summer and fall.....  Summer is by far my favorite season!! On the other hand I do enjoy fall. The crispness of the weather, the famous Indian summer weather that Michigan can get! The beautiful fall colors of leaves changing on the trees. Fall festivals, Cider Mills, Apple cider and all that goes with fall! It always fascinates me how the seasons can merge with each other to make a new season! Although when it comes to winter I love the prettiness of snow but  I hate the cold temperatures!!

So I am going to go outside now and enjoy the heat and take my furbaby for a relaxing walk. Enjoy the summer! 

New journey

I am starting a new venture/journey that I'm very excited about. My great grandmother was a quilter and she did all her quilting by hand. Quilting is not something that I have been taught how to do. But at this moment I am making a baby quilt for a close friend of mine and am teaching myself how to make it without any patterns. I am making it by what I see in my head. 

I am going to turn this into a side business and will not only make quilts but will make anything that is quiltable! 

I have been getting all kinds of idea's from Pinterest on all the stuff that I could possibly quilt and am going to learn as I go on making all the possible stuff that I could do with quilting. What better way to make extra money by doing something that I know I will enjoy like my great grandmother. We lost my great grandma 12 years ago next week just 2 weeks after her 98th birthday. But just a few weeks before her birthday I sat down and watched her work her magic on piecing granny squares together for a quilt. As I sat there and watched her I knew then that I wanted to learn how to quilt and am now just getting the courage to do it!

I hope that my grandmother will be sitting next to me in spirit guiding me as I learn to do this on my own. Here is a picture of what I have done so far tonight on this baby quilt for my friends baby.

Family: Life and Journey's

Family..... We all have two families; The family that we are born into and the family that we create amongst our friends. Family doesn't have to be blood in any way shape or form. We love our family but we also love our friend's. I love my family and my friend's equally. Some people don't have a great family relationship with there family and or relatives for many reason's which is why some make there friend's family. Always remember that regardless of who you consider family that you need to always be there when they need a ear to talk to. Don't pick and choose if you want to answer that phone when they call and not return there call or text message for that matter, cause you never know if there is something wrong. Or don't be in the middle of a conversation with them then suddenly act like you can't hear them then hang up on them and ignore there call when they call right back. And don't claim that your phone never rings when they call or claim that you never receive text message's that they sent you. Family doesn't treat family like that. This is just a rant cause I am irritated at certain (blood) family member's.

Life and Journey's...... As kid's we can't wait to be adults. To be able to live our own lives and do as we please. We decide on what we want our life Journey to be but sometimes that journey has many road block's and dead ends and we never seem to find that correct fork in the road to what our journey is supposed to be. I am in my early 40's and am still trying to find that correct fork in the road for my life journey that's supposed to be for me. I sometimes wonder why it is that some people have it so easy in there journey as adults and for some it's  constant hardship's, dead end's, heart break and constant loss. I am tired of the constant struggles. It seems like no matter what I do nothing work's out right. Every time thing's are starting to go the way I want it to something happens and everything comes crashing back down on me and I have to start crawling my way back again and it happens over and over again. I want a solid journey in life. I want to live comfortably and not have to constantly stress and worry about making sure I have enough money to pay this bill or that bill. This is not how I imagined my life journey as a adult! It really hurts me when I see people on FB constantly taking trips here and trip's trip's there when I can't even go see my sibling that lives 2000 mile's away. 2 week's ago I got to the point that I've decided to limit logging into FB except for 1 day a week, and am not even looking at the news feed when I do log in. Where I have worked for the past 5 1/2 year's we have always had unlimited overtime. Every year our weekly insurance deduction's from our pay check's have gone up. Actually it has skyrocketed to the point that it's ridiculous! This past summer my employer banned us from working 12 hour shifts to cover people from other shifts. And has recently told us that we soon will no longer be allowed to work weekend's. I have not worked any overtime in a month. This lack of overtime has caused my check's to be cut in half of what I normally brought home with overtime. And financially I can't survive on a 40 hour paycheck.   On top of that with my kid graduating last Spring I no longer get the child support except what is owed in back child support and even with what I was getting monthly has been cut in half. The amount of money being taken out of my check's for taxes is ridiculous. Will I ever catch a break? My car needs repairs and I can't even afford to get it repaired. I am going to have to find myself a second job and that's not what I want. I will not have any type of life like that! I am wanting to start a business to make extra money from home but how is a person to get the financial backing for that when you have inquired about financial backing and you get nothing but door's slammed in your face? This business that I want to start will happen but it will have to be one order at a time until the money starts flowing in. I am working on creating my own fork in the correct path, something that I will enjoy doing. But it can be so overwhelming at time's to know which way to turn or which way to go. But I will do this I am now fighting against all these road block's and dead end's. I am not going to play this game of the unfairness in life anymore. I already got my first order from a coworker. She knows that I will get it done for her as soon as I am able to get the supplies that I need to make it for her. This new journey that I am creating for myself will be posted after I get 3 project's done. I am just doing some venting today and trying to clear my head which is what this post is about on 2 subject's. Will post again soon.......

Life is life

Ok it seems that no matter what I'm not very good at keeping up on the whole blogging thing.
So I guess it is what it is and that's that. I will post when I post, lol

This will just be a 9 month catch up blog. :)

My son's graduation went well back in May. My eldest and favorite Aunt made the trip from Cleveland for D's graduation. We enjoyed her being here for the day. WE had only been in our new house for 2 weeks when graduation day came so my house was obviously still a total wreck from unpacking. (I hate unpacking by the way) Instead of moving in with us my parent's chose to move to Arizona. So the morning after D graduated they was on the road but not until I made them a very large breakfast for a full tummy while traveling there 1st day on the road.

Two day's after D graduated my cousin's oldest graduated and his graduation party was right after his graduation. It was a beautiful and perfect day to be outside for his party. Can't believe these boy's are out of high school. Just doesn't seem possible.

Fast forward a month and we had a very busy 9 Day's! The last saturday of June we had our yearly family reunion. Then had to rush home cause had family coming in from out of state for my son's graduation party and our yearly camping trip.
Reunion we was pretty much stuck in my great aunt and uncle's garage due to rain. Apparently a bad storm hit my tiny town while we was there. The closer we got to home after the reunion the more tree limbs and tree's was down on the ground. My family from out of state got to my house before we did so luckily I left the door on locked for them. (I don't make it a habit of leaving my door's unlocked even though I do live in the country). When we got home it was a race to get the house clean and ready for the following day of company for D's graduation party. It turned out to be a very hot, humid and muggy day so since my grandparent's was going to be there I decided to have the party indoors in the a/c. I didnt want grandma and grandpa getting over heated since they are in there late 80's. And I think everyone else appreciated that to. The party was perfect Except for the fact that my parent's and sister and her family wasn't there. Originally the plan was that I was going to buy the plane ticket's to fly my sis, bro n law and there 4 children out but I didn't realize how expensive it would be to fly all 6 of them out here so that didn't happen. Will get them out here another time. :(

Normally we would've been leaving for our camping trip that day as we always do the Sunday before the 4th of July. But unfortunately for us I waited to long to make our reservation's. We ended up pitching our tent onto my baby cousin's camp site. They don't go for the whole week like we do so that gave us a couple of day's to hang at the pool and not have to rush to get all the camping gear together. But I made sure we had our reservation's for this year before we left the campgrounds last year. Camping was fun as it alway's is every year!! Am excited for this year's camping trip though cause I picked one of the few tent site's that are in front of the swimming lake. The only trick will be trying to keep my sweet fur baby out of the lake cause she love's swimming......

A month after camping D got his first job. It is close enough for him to walk to work, but not in these frigid temp's. I'm peeling myself out of bed early and taking him to work. can't wait for Spring to get here so he can walk to work though. :-/ He is still working there and helping his momma with bill's for awhile. But he need's to start looking into college. The past 9 month's has gone by so quickly. Went to cleveland for Christmas and got into mischief with my favorite bestie cousin. Alway's enjoy my time with her!

Future plan's are now in the work's. Yearly camping trip. Long weekend for me in the fall to take a road trip to the DC area to see my best friend from high school. And hoping to go to Cali the 1st week of August if D can get out of work for a week so we can go see my sis and family.

And I am working on starting a project to make money on the side to make extra money on the side. Hopefully this pan's out the way I want. But I will post a seperate post for that. I need to get off of here now. Hope everyone has a good week. stay warm it's gonna be another cold freezing week. Laterssss

Journey

In 4 day's my son will be graduating from High School and beginning his own journey in life. I'm sad that he has grown up so quickly and sad that the year's have gone by entirely way to fast. But at the same time I am curious as to what the next chapter in his life has in it's folds for him. He want's to be a diesel mechanic which I don't have a problem with that cause it will be a good paying job. He has a college picked out that specializes in the auto mechanic industry. They also specialize in Nascar stock cars's which I told him he should consider that also, so that he can get a job working with Nascar and get me tickets for all the Sprint Cup Races around the country...... hahahahaha (yes I'm a big Nascar fan)

 This summer is going to be a busy one for us! My parents are coming in on Thursday. My favorite aunt on Friday. Graduation on Friday night. And the beginning of graduation party's starting on Sunday for my cousins son whom is also graduating this week. My parents are moving to AZ on Saturday. Then a month straight of constant 12 hour shifts for me. The last weekend of June is my sons graduation party and the following day we leave for our yearly camping trip. Then 3 more weeks of constant 12 hour shifts and then off to Cali we go for a week to spend some much needed time with my sister and her family. ~hopefully~ Then after that it's time for my son to go on his journey in life. ~sigh~

I just hope his adulthood brings many pleasure's in life and not to many hardship's that so many of us has seen over the past few years.

As I'm typing this I'm completely distracted by other things and realize that I'm blabbering a tad bit. I will post more this week.

                                            ~Happy Memorial Day! God Bless and stay safe today!

Trust

So I'm on a 5 pound restriction which isn't work related. Yesterday 3 hours into my shift after I put the drs slip on our hr reps desk he calls my cell phone and asks me to call him. So I walk away from my press and went up to hr (he forgot that I work 1st shift) and proceeds to tell me that because this is not work related that they can't accommodate me at work and tells me to go home.... Ok whatever! I think that's b.s. Cause I happen to know for a fact that they have accommodated many other employees. But I'll keep my mouth shut on this. 

A week ago I took my spoiled bratty dog to the vets cause she had scratched her ear raw and I suspected that she has allergies. So the vets gave me some ointment for her ear which has pretty much healed. But, the other night my friend noticed the same thing on her neck only it was way worse. So I took her back to the vet this morning and they shaved her neck, cleaned it up and the vet now fully agrees with me. Ugh! Good thing k9 allergy meds are way cheaper then human meds! She's now on 2 different types of allergy meds.

Right after I woke up this morning and was getting ready to walk out the door to head to the vets a friend from work texts me and asks me if I wanna make some money. Another employee got fired for something he said to her this morning and because he knows where she lives she was worried about him trying to retaliate and go to her house. She wanted someone to go to her house and watch her kids and house just to be on the safe side! I completely don't blame her on that! Her kids have never met me so I am glad that she trusts me enough to go to her house and watch them without them not knowing me. Trust is a key word in not only relationships but friendship to. :)

Hello 2014

2013 in review: My son turned 18, I financed my very first suv and I love it! My spoiled dog was hit by a truck and survived. She could barely walk for a month and had to have help getting into sitting positions and laying positions and had to be lifted to a standing positions but she survived and that's what matters! I found out that I have high blood pressure which took 5-6 months to get under control. My son started his senior year of high school :( my dr discovered that I have seriously high cholesterol and told me to lose weight and change my diet to see if I can bring it down myself before deciding on putting me on meds for that. I didn't have the best year in 2013 but I got by.

I have many New Years resolutions for 2014 and I will stick to all of them.

I will take that weight off plus some. I am changing the way I eat slowly but surely.

I will succeed in quitting smoking.

And most importantly I am slowly working on making my finances 100% healthy again.

I have a goal to buy a house in the next few years and one way or another I'm going to make that happen.

And I vow to post on a regular basis on here rather then once or twice a year. :)

My son will be graduating in May and I'm completely unprepared and not ready for it. I'm flying my sister and her family out here to help celebrate at his graduation party and I'm completely excited and anxious for them to get here! Not only for the family time but so I can have some much needed  sister time with my baby sis. I'm moving my parents in with me in the spring to free up money for them and for myself. But I don't think my sister yet knows about this which I don't know if that will upset her or not.

Mother Nature started 2014 off with a winter weather advisory for us and the snow is so beautiful right now. I took a picture earlier but unfortunately I can't figure out how to upload a picture of it from my iPad so I guess I will have to leave the picture out that I took earlier.

I hope that 2014 brings everyone happiness, good health both physically and financially! 

             Happy New Year!!!

Time

I'm feeling a little down lately. Time seems to be going by so fast. School ended 8 days ago and I now have a high school senior on my hands. I have hit 40 and d has hit 18 and it just doesn't seem possible. I'm not ready to let go, but what parent ever is?

It seems like it was just yesterday that my dad and I had tricked d into walking instead of reaching for
Furniture to grasp into his tiny hands.  D was late, more like lazy on learning to talk no matter what I did I couldn't even trick him into talking. When he was 3 years old we moved from the west coast to the mid west to my home state and my grandmother had him talking up a storm within a week. Thank God for great grandmothers!! ;)

And then I must've blinked cause the next thing I knew he was starting kindergarten and from there the time just took off from underneath me. Constant school functions, a short time in the school band, sports starting in middle school. The typical teen parent arguments and me pulling my hair out.
But now a year from now that chapter in life will be over!

But I am excited over the next chapter in life. I can't wait to see where his journey as a adult will take him. I know he wants to go into the military but hasn't come right out and told me this. Probably because I want him to go to college! But I can't force him to go regardless of what I feel or think, right!?!

Life as a single parent has been a journey that has its ups and downs! I have had help raising him by my parents, aunts, uncles, cousins and the most important person my ex whom he looks up to as his father figure. I appreciated that help cause I honestly would get overwhelmed at times.

I seem to be blabbering in this post so I'm going to end this one. I will be posting all of d's senior stuff
Once school resumes in the fall. I'm always meaning to post blogs but never seem to have the energy to do it but am going to start making time for it.

Happy Sunday oh and happy Father's Day to all the fathers and mothers pulling double duty out there!!

Luck of the Irish!

I've alway's had a passion and fascination with anything Irish regardless of what it was. I learned when i was a young that I had Irish in me from my dad's father's side of the family.  I recently learned that my great grandfather (my dad's mothers father) was half Irish. So I have more Irish in me than I thought!! I find it ironic that a country that has alway's fascinated me is actually part of my heritage/ancestry. And I love it!! St. Patricks Day has alway's been my favorite day of the year. This post is actually just a post with some Irish Blessing's for anyone that loves a good Blessing. I know it's a little early but have fun on St. Patty's Day, Drink some green beer, Dance and sing like your the only one on the room and most importantly have lot's of insanely crazy fun!! Be safe and have load's of fun!!

Irish Blessings and Sayings
May you always have
Walls for the winds,
A roof for the rain,
Tea beside the fire,
Laughter to cheer you,
Those you love near you,
And all your heart might desire!

May you be in
Heaven a half hour before the
Devil knows you're dead!

When Irish eyes are smiling,
Tis like a morn in spring.
With a lilt of Irish laughter
You can hear the angels sing
When Irish hearts are happy
All the world is bright and gay
When Irish eyes are smiling
Sure, they steal your heart away.

May your blessings outnumber
The shamrocks that grow,
And may trouble avoid you
Wherever you go.

There are many good reasons for drinking,
One has just entered my head.
If a man doesn't drink when he's living,
How in the hell can he drink when he's dead?

May the best day of your past
Be the worst day of your future.

I'm looking over a four leaf clover
That I overlooked before
One leaf is sunshine, the second is rain,
Third is the roses that grow in the lane.
No need explaining the one remaining
Is somebody I adore.
I'm looking over a four leaf clover
That I overlooked before.

May you live to be a hundred years
With one extra year to repent.

May those who love us, love us
And those who don't love us,
May God turn their hearts
And if he can't turn their hearts,
May he turn their ankles
So we will know them by their limping!

As you slide down the banister of life,
May the splinters never point in the wrong direction!

May luck be our companion
May friends stand by our side
May history remind us all
Of Ireland's faith and pride.
May God bless us with happiness
May love and faith abide.

Leprechauns, castles, good luck and laughter
Lullabies, dreams, and love ever after.
Poems and songs with pipes and drums
A thousand welcomes when anyone comes.
That's the Irish for you!

There's a dear little plant that grows in our isle,
'Twas St. Patrick himself, sure, that sets it;
And the sun of his labor with pleasure did smile,
And with dew from his eye often wet it.
It grows through the bog, through the brake, through the mireland,
And they call it the dear little Shamrock of Ireland.

May your neighbors respect you,
Troubles neglect you,
The angels protect you,
And Heaven accept you.

May you have:
A world of wishes at your command
God and his angels close at hand
Friends and family their love impart,
And Irish blessings in you heart.

May God grant you many years to live,
For sure he must be knowing
The earth has angels all to few
And Heaven is overflowing.

These things I warmly wish to you-
Someone to love
Some work to do
A bit o' sun
A bit o' cheer
And a guardian angel always near.

Here's to a long life and a merry one
A quick death and an easy one
A pretty girl and an honest one
A cold beer and another one!

May your pockets be heavy and your heart be light,
May good luck pursue you each morning and night,

O Ireland isn't it grand you look
like a bride in her rich adornin?
And with all the pent up love of my heart
I bid you the top o' the mornin!


May the lilt of lush laughter lighten ever road,
May the midst of Irish magic shorten every road.
May you taste the sweetest pleasures
that fortune ever bestowed,
And may all your friends remember
all the favors you are owed.

Go mbeannai Dia duit
(May God Bless You)

May your home always be too small to hold all your friends.
God is good, but never dance in a small boat.

May you live as long as you want,
And never want as long as you live.

If you're enough lucky to be Irish...
You're lucky enough!My wild Irish rose
The sweetest flower that grows
You may search everywhere
But none can compare to my wild Irish rose
My wild Irish rose
The sweetest flower that grows
Someday for my sake she may let me take
A bloom from my wild Irish rose

'Tis better to buy a small bouquet
And give to your friend this very day,
Than a bushel of roses white and red
To lay on his coffin after he's dead.

For each petal on the shamrock
This brings a wish your way-
Good health, good luck, and happiness
For today and every day.

Dance as if no one were watching,
Sing as if no one were listening,
And live every day as if it were your last.

Beginning my mission

I went into work today only to get sent home, which is no big deal i guess. It just gave me the time to run over to the gym so that i can move forward on my mission. I have my goal's set in my mind and am using July 1, 2012 as my goal deadline.


The gym said they will help me reach my goal and i'm dead bent on reaching it. I told them i wanna lose 50 pounds (I only need to lose like 40 in all honesty) by next summer and they said no problem that will be easy and will help me. Starting tomorrow i will be going to the gym after work. And Saturday i will cut out my smoking permanently. 


I have not set foot in a gym in almost 15 year's and wish i had never stopped going. I have fought and fought with my weight since i had my son. It's been a never ending battle for me!!
I have been unhappy with the way i look since i had my son 16 and a half year's ago. So if i'm going to be happy with myself then this goal will make it happen. :)


I don't normally eat when i'm working, but i think if i'm going to reach my goals that i need to make myself eat a small breakfast in the mornings, a small lunch and a light dinner.
I think the hardest thing will be staying away from the fast food, junk food and pop.
The more i cut out the easier it will be on me. I eat ALOT of carbohydrate's and am sitting here wondering if i will be able to cut those out or if i would be able to get away with eatting some carbo's twice a week at least. I love my spaghetti, lasagne etc to much to fully cut those out while i work on my goal. :\ The main thing is i need to eat more veggies and fruits. But im such a anti veggie person that i'm not sure how that will fly lol. 


I'm outta here for now i will post more tomorrow night on how my first day in the gym went. (: Have a wonderful people!!!

Son Poem

Never Unsaid

I never want this to go unsaid,
So here in this poem, is for it to be said. 
There are no words to express how much you mean to me,
A son like you, I thought could never be.
Because the day you were born, I just knew,
God sent me a blessing- and that was you.
For this I thank Him everyday, 
You are the true definition of a son, in everyway.
It is because of you that my life has meaning,
Becoming a mom has shown me a new sense of being.
I want you to know that you were the purpose of my life,
Out of everything I did- it was you that I did right.
Always remember that I know how much you care,
I can tell by the relationship that we share.
For a son like you there could be no other,
And whether we are together or apart,
Please do not ever forget-
You will always have a piece of my heart.

Remembering!!

June 8, 1989 started off as any normal day. It was our last day of school and in a few short week's we would be permanently moving to California. I was finishing up my 1st year of high school as a freshman. My brother was finishing up his last year of middle school. I had my last 2 final exams and was not looking forward to it.
Jason was excited about moving to the west coast. We had already spent time in both California and Arizona the past couple of years. A summer long camping trip in Arizona. Part of that summer was spent at our Aunt and Uncles in Arizona. We got lot's of cousin time with 4 of our cousins during that visit. And had a blast being able to see them. We adventually headed back to Michigan at the end of that summer of 87 and back to school and the same ol daily life....
That fateful day after school i would have never thought that our life would change in such a drastic devastating way when Jason and i stepped off that bus. A train was coming down the tracks and we had to cross over it to get home. My brother never saw it coming, he ran off of the bus so quickly that i couldnt stop him to make sure he knew it was coming. He never saw it coming until it was too late. I remember seeing him start to turn back around but it was to late. The train clipped him in the head and it is a memory that will never leave my mind. It took year's for me to forget and be at peace. I so desperately miss him during the summer months. Next month he wouldve been turning 36 and i sometime's wonder what he would have been like as a adult. How many kids he would have had. Career.... im pretty damn sure it would have had something to do with computer's!! LOL :)
I've been walking down memory lane the past couple of day's just remembering my favorite memories of him that i have permanently locked into my heart. I pull those memories out every now and then with a smile on my face. I will never forget any of them memories they will alway's be safe in my heart.
1 of the few memories that i have of the day that we laid Jason to rest was my grandmother singing my brothers favorite song  which my aunt's adventually got up and joined her to help her get through singing it. This song often runs through my head just because its 1 of my memories of him. which i will add to this posting along with a few of my favorite picture's of him.
R.I.P little brother I Love You!!

Amazing Grace!!

Journey

So since my life seem's to be a constant Journey (and adventure), my new blog name seemed perfect to use!!
There never seem's to be a dull moment in my life especially being a single mother to a 16 year old son.
I sometime's feel like he is trying to pull away and do thing's his way and i'm really having a hard time with that!!
I sometime's wish he was still little. I miss him wanting to cuddle with his mama. But then again there's alot of thing's i miss. Guess i need to get used to the idea that sooner rather then later he will soon be out on his own.
His 1st year of high school will be coming to a end next week. Before i know it in 3 short year's i will be getting ready for his graduation and open house!!
It amazes me how fast time flies once you are a parent. As kid's it seemed like the year's dragged by cause we wanted to be adults and when were parent's we just can't seem to make time slow down. Why is that??
This is why i think life is a daily journey. But where does this daily journey truely take us in life?