Beginning my mission

I went into work today only to get sent home, which is no big deal i guess. It just gave me the time to run over to the gym so that i can move forward on my mission. I have my goal's set in my mind and am using July 1, 2012 as my goal deadline.


The gym said they will help me reach my goal and i'm dead bent on reaching it. I told them i wanna lose 50 pounds (I only need to lose like 40 in all honesty) by next summer and they said no problem that will be easy and will help me. Starting tomorrow i will be going to the gym after work. And Saturday i will cut out my smoking permanently. 


I have not set foot in a gym in almost 15 year's and wish i had never stopped going. I have fought and fought with my weight since i had my son. It's been a never ending battle for me!!
I have been unhappy with the way i look since i had my son 16 and a half year's ago. So if i'm going to be happy with myself then this goal will make it happen. :)


I don't normally eat when i'm working, but i think if i'm going to reach my goals that i need to make myself eat a small breakfast in the mornings, a small lunch and a light dinner.
I think the hardest thing will be staying away from the fast food, junk food and pop.
The more i cut out the easier it will be on me. I eat ALOT of carbohydrate's and am sitting here wondering if i will be able to cut those out or if i would be able to get away with eatting some carbo's twice a week at least. I love my spaghetti, lasagne etc to much to fully cut those out while i work on my goal. :\ The main thing is i need to eat more veggies and fruits. But im such a anti veggie person that i'm not sure how that will fly lol. 


I'm outta here for now i will post more tomorrow night on how my first day in the gym went. (: Have a wonderful people!!!

Son Poem

Never Unsaid

I never want this to go unsaid,
So here in this poem, is for it to be said. 
There are no words to express how much you mean to me,
A son like you, I thought could never be.
Because the day you were born, I just knew,
God sent me a blessing- and that was you.
For this I thank Him everyday, 
You are the true definition of a son, in everyway.
It is because of you that my life has meaning,
Becoming a mom has shown me a new sense of being.
I want you to know that you were the purpose of my life,
Out of everything I did- it was you that I did right.
Always remember that I know how much you care,
I can tell by the relationship that we share.
For a son like you there could be no other,
And whether we are together or apart,
Please do not ever forget-
You will always have a piece of my heart.

Remembering!!

June 8, 1989 started off as any normal day. It was our last day of school and in a few short week's we would be permanently moving to California. I was finishing up my 1st year of high school as a freshman. My brother was finishing up his last year of middle school. I had my last 2 final exams and was not looking forward to it.
Jason was excited about moving to the west coast. We had already spent time in both California and Arizona the past couple of years. A summer long camping trip in Arizona. Part of that summer was spent at our Aunt and Uncles in Arizona. We got lot's of cousin time with 4 of our cousins during that visit. And had a blast being able to see them. We adventually headed back to Michigan at the end of that summer of 87 and back to school and the same ol daily life....
That fateful day after school i would have never thought that our life would change in such a drastic devastating way when Jason and i stepped off that bus. A train was coming down the tracks and we had to cross over it to get home. My brother never saw it coming, he ran off of the bus so quickly that i couldnt stop him to make sure he knew it was coming. He never saw it coming until it was too late. I remember seeing him start to turn back around but it was to late. The train clipped him in the head and it is a memory that will never leave my mind. It took year's for me to forget and be at peace. I so desperately miss him during the summer months. Next month he wouldve been turning 36 and i sometime's wonder what he would have been like as a adult. How many kids he would have had. Career.... im pretty damn sure it would have had something to do with computer's!! LOL :)
I've been walking down memory lane the past couple of day's just remembering my favorite memories of him that i have permanently locked into my heart. I pull those memories out every now and then with a smile on my face. I will never forget any of them memories they will alway's be safe in my heart.
1 of the few memories that i have of the day that we laid Jason to rest was my grandmother singing my brothers favorite song  which my aunt's adventually got up and joined her to help her get through singing it. This song often runs through my head just because its 1 of my memories of him. which i will add to this posting along with a few of my favorite picture's of him.
R.I.P little brother I Love You!!

Amazing Grace!!

Journey

So since my life seem's to be a constant Journey (and adventure), my new blog name seemed perfect to use!!
There never seem's to be a dull moment in my life especially being a single mother to a 16 year old son.
I sometime's feel like he is trying to pull away and do thing's his way and i'm really having a hard time with that!!
I sometime's wish he was still little. I miss him wanting to cuddle with his mama. But then again there's alot of thing's i miss. Guess i need to get used to the idea that sooner rather then later he will soon be out on his own.
His 1st year of high school will be coming to a end next week. Before i know it in 3 short year's i will be getting ready for his graduation and open house!!
It amazes me how fast time flies once you are a parent. As kid's it seemed like the year's dragged by cause we wanted to be adults and when were parent's we just can't seem to make time slow down. Why is that??
This is why i think life is a daily journey. But where does this daily journey truely take us in life?

Help!!!!

I want to get rid of the name tweety on my blog.... can anyone please tell me how to change my blog name???

End of the world??

So i've been seeing all kind's of statuses on Face Book today about how the world is coming to a end on Saturday. I've also seen that people are paying others 135$ to care for there animal's when it happen's. Really?? Are people that stupid to fall for that kind of scam?? As i child I grew up in a legalistic Baptist Church, I learned alot about the Rapture and i can say to anyone that we will not know when it will happen until it happens. Yes the signs of it coming is there. The war's and All the deadly Earthquakes, typhoons, sunamis, floods, hurricane's, tornadoes and fires etc are all signs that it's coming. But it could still be several year's from now and could possibly not even happen in our life time!! Seriously people get a freakin grip on yourselves. This rumor was started by a small Religious Sect in California!! Here is a video link to check out. I seriously sometime's want to go back to my upbringing just to teach people about the Rapture cause so many people are just full of nonsense!!!

Here's that video link

http://www.worldtocome.org/player.html#!Item=560068

Have a wonderful weekend!!!

Confused!?!?

So i'm really beginning to wonder if summer is ever going to get here or if mother nature is going to be mean and skip summer. I'm really getting tired of it being cold and especially sick of all this rain we've been getting lately. I need some warmth. Hot summer night's with a beer or 2 in the evenings to enjoy. I'm anxious to go to the lake and get my summer tan going (:

and getting my swimming fix in!! ;) not to mention that i am itching to get into my shorts tank tops and going barefoot every where.

Yes i am rambling and yes i am bored!! I'm irritated over the fact that thursday and friday was hot yesterday was warm and now its cold again :\

On the other hand of life somethings seem to be looking up. Some of which i'll put in another post at a later date. I'm finally off of restriction at work for my shoulder. I was sent to see a orthopedic dr 3 weeks ago and he looked at my MRI and the only thing he could see was arthritis so he gave me a injection and it worked. I went back to see him this past Thursday and was pleased that the injection did it's job and told me that when i feel that i need another one to go see him to get another injection. And let me tell ya when he gave me that 1st injection he came up behind me and stuck that needle in before i knew what hit me. All's i remember is this sudden burning sensation going through my shoulder and arm outta no where :O it was crazyness lol

Well i guess since im babbling im gonna get off of this. Have a great night!!!

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just figuring out how to upload pics onto this (:

now if only i can figure out how to do this via my android......

Bored

Beginning to wonder why i have this blog. I have had it for i dont know how many year's now and have yet to put it to use. But am going to start writing on it on a weekly basis for all kind's of stuff hahaha ;) Sitting here right now bored out of my mind and have nothing to do, so i decided to mess with this and start learning how to use it. For now i'm off of here have a great night!!!